Old Age Pains

Can I just be blunt? They say at my age, I usually say what’s on my mind anyway. My first impression as I’ve been in my 60’s now a couple of years is that getting old stinks. In my life, I’ve always been an “I can do anything” kind of girl. If I had a goal, there were no limitations as I seized every day.  In my 60’s I’m getting glimpses of what it means to get old like never before—old age pains. 

Is this what there is to life? You strive to do what you feel called to do and one day, you simply can’t do it anymore? Maybe there’s a lack of energy, physical limitation or no brain space left for new things. Nonetheless, the ability wains.

I was with a couple yesterday who were in their 70’s. They had been retired for a while. 

I said to them, “Encourage me! Tell me it gets better after retirement!” 

They both looked at each other and shook their heads no. Really? I’m almost a stranger and you can’t find a glimpse of encouragement for me? Even a small white lie just to keep me from jumping off the next cliff? (Don’t worry, I’m not suicidal.)

Then as I was leaving their home shocked and not encouraged, I turned on the radio. The lady on the radio said if you’re living for yourself or for your success, you’ll be discouraged. It’s when Jesus is front and center in your life calling the shots that there is joy. 

It’s hard for us to sometimes turn over the control. Even when we’ve been living for Jesus for years, there is a tendency to take over for ourselves again and again. As I go through my senior days, sporting my purple hair perhaps and saying what’s on my mind, I’m going to remind myself to let go. Let go of the control that I think frees me but actually holds me back. Let go of the need to do everything to perfection and be great at what I do. I’m going to let go and let God take control back. He’s not going to put me anywhere I shouldn’t be if I’m listening to Him. He’ll give me what I need wherever I am in life.

Over the many years I have served Him, He has never let me down. Today I trust He’s got this old age thing under control for me too. Just as He provided wisdom from a radio program, He will continue to give me what I need when I need it. I just need to look up and follow Him. 


His Eye is On the Sparrow…

I love the nature that shows up in my backyard. This little chipping sparrow frequents our feeder and is one of the smallest birds out there. It’s so cute. We have other types of sparrows that come too but this one always catches my eye. God mentions the sparrow several times throughout scripture. I think he chose it because of its size. He wanted us to know He cares for all of His creation, even the smallest.

In Matthew 10:29-31 (ESV) it says: Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? And not one of them will fall to the ground apart from your Father. But even the hairs of your head are all numbered. Fear not, therefore; you are of more value than many sparrows.

As I was going through a crazy week last week, I was pondering all of the things in my head that could go wrong. Did you ever have a time like that when there were so many changes and stressful situations surrounding you that you started to worry? That was my week.

And then the sparrow showed up. The tiniest bird in the backyard came to remind me.

God’s got this.

“Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life? And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. … Matthew 6:25-34 (ESV)

This Little Light of Mine…

As I was sitting by my window today going through emails, I looked out at some cloudy skies and it was dark. All of a sudden the sun came out and it got my attention. Light does have a way of getting one’s attention. You just can’t ignore it like you can the darkness.

A while back someone made a post online that said something like, “Not everyone likes me because Jesus in me irritates some people’s demons.”

That’s true. As Christians, we will never be liked by all. However, we are loved by The One who matters. So in a dark world, I’m going to let my light shine because it makes a difference. How about you?