So, Can I Tell You About My Week?


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Was that really a week or did I just wake up from a bad dream?  I started out Monday morning in the Emergency Room by orders of my doctor.  I won’t go into the details as to why.  However, the visit resulted in a colonoscopy being ordered for Friday morning.  If you’ve ever had a colonoscopy, you know that there is preparation one must do the day before.  I rushed home from work on Thursday to start my first dose at 3:30 as ordered.  I started drinking my meds and half way through this horrible tasting stuff, Jim walked in the door early from work exhibiting signs of a heart attack.

I took his blood pressure as a good nursing school dropout should.  Then I Googled his symptoms.  Oh, yes, we need to get to the Emergency Room!  I’m going to be a little blunt here, but I don’t think there’s a reader who can’t relate.  I put him in the car and prayed all the way there that I didn’t poo my pants.  I had no idea how long it would take the meds to start working!   We spent the remainder of the day in the ER only to determine that he needed to be admitted for more tests.

I didn’t get any sleep that night and arrived at about 6:30 am Friday morning at the hospital.  I wanted to see Jim and drop him off some clothes and a toothbrush before going to my test at 7:30.  While I was undergoing my colonoscopy, he was somewhere else in the hospital having a stress test!  Nothing like supporting the local medical center with everything we’ve got…and probably some we don’t have too!  I got a clean bill of health and was very happy that I don’t have to repeat that scenario for another ten years…or never if I have it my way!  Jim on the other hand remains undiagnosed; however, they did decide his heart is fine.

When I walked into church today someone said, “You look so good for all you’ve been through this week!”  After all we’ve been through in our lifetimes, not much affects us anymore.  Yes, I was concerned about what they might find for either one of us.  Yes, I hated to think my husband might have something major wrong. Yes, the situations exhausted us.  However, there truly is a peace that can’t be explained when your eyes are set on Jesus.

Then quite appropriately, the sermon today at our church was titled, “Why Do Bad Things Happen to Good People?”  You see, a young couple in our church are pregnant with a child they may never get to know in this lifetime.  Unless God does a miracle, their baby’s brain may not be formed enough to even tell it how to breathe when it is born.  It doesn’t take long for your perspective to change when you realize that maybe your problems aren’t all that bad.  As I watched this young couple talk about their unborn baby with a peace that only God could give; I recognized the same strength we were experiencing in our trials.  The same Holy Spirit that was getting us through our week was also getting them through theirs.  No matter what we might be facing in this life; God’s peace can be there if we will just seek Him and keep Him first in everything that comes our way.  He is the same from one person to another…His strength and peace never change.

None of us know what tomorrow brings, but we can rest knowing that the Lord who created us has it all under control.  What have you been going through this week?  Have you asked for God’s peace?  It really is real and can be yours if you trust and believe that God can.  In the meantime, please put Jim and Ella (the unborn baby) on your prayer lists this week.  I’m praying for some good things ahead!  Be blessed and don’t forget to get out there and be a blessing!

Isaiah 54:10 (NIV) Though the mountains be shaken and the hills be removed, yet my unfailing love for you will not be shaken nor my covenant of peace be removed,” says the Lord, who has compassion on you.


I Can See Clearly Now!

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Stuff just happens to me.  I don’t know why.  I started feeling sorry for myself this week as the medical bills have begun rolling in and the first one was over $500 just for one visit.  I hate the fact that I have this disease now and Jim gets stuck with my bills at times because my real estate income is sporadic.  He wants to take care of me but I know it just adds more stress to him.  We were discussing the health insurance the other night and how much the maximum out of pocket might be for the year.  I looked at him and said, “I’m just trouble.”  He didn’t miss a beat and replied, “I knew that before you married you and I married you anyway!”  I love that man.

This week I had to go to the eye doctor.  It’s getting to where I can’t see from one end to the next in the grocery store aisle and I knew my prescription was changing.  I always panic when I get my eyes checked.  Many years ago I went to the eye doctor and they put drops in my eyes and left me alone.  The drops were to dilate my pupils so the doctor could see inside.  As I sat in the chair, the room started spinning and I became really ill.  No one was coming back to check on me and I thought I would die.  The only relief I could think of was to lay my head down on the floor.  I think there is something true about getting close to the center of gravity but nonetheless, it just seemed like the right thing to do with what was going on with me.  So I got out of the seat and put my ear up against the floor pleading to God to stop the spinning.  As I laid there on the floor, the assistant came in and let out a shriek for the doctor to come in.  I think she thought I had died or something.  It was quite embarrassing but what is a girl going to do?  Like I said stuff just happens to me.

This week when I went to the eye doctor, Jim convinced me that they have different drops now and they shouldn’t affect me that way anymore.  So I bravely went in and allowed them to do the drops again.  Since my doctors now are also my clients, I try to play the tough guy…you know in control…never letting them see me sweat!  They put one set of drops in my eyes and said it didn’t dilate them enough, then again, and then a third time before they had my pupils looking like big bowling balls in my head!  I made it!  No dizziness, nothing.  I was so proud…and relieved that I didn’t make a scene in their office.  I faced my fears and all was well.

Sometimes in life when we have struggles, we have to be willing to look at them through dilated pupils so to speak.  Am I struggling because I don’t have my faith firmly planted on my Center of Gravity aka God?  Has something in my life happened before that causes my vision to be skewed on reality?  Am I not willing to dilate certain areas of my life to explore and understand where my fears and concerns are coming from?

Just as I had to face my fears and allow the drops to be put into my eyes once again; so you might have to face your fears to open yourself up to some soul-searching and healing.  Once we do open ourselves up to God to reveal what’s really going on inside, He is faithful to help us get through.  All of the things that were clouding our vision before become miniscule when we are focused on Him.  Our view of our issues become so much more clear.  This week I pray that you do some introspection with God.  Take the chance and ask Him to open your eyes so that you can see your world as He does.  He doesn’t stay up at night wondering how He’s going to pay my medical bills.  He isn’t affected by my past experiences.  He doesn’t even fret over my latest diagnosis.  He understands it will all be used to my good and that if I just keep my head to the ground so to speak, my world will no longer be spinning out of control.   I am beginning to see things more clearly.  Are you?

Even when I look like trouble, God loves me.  In fact, He knew that about me before He chose me and He chose me anyway!  Won’t you let God Who owns everything, knows everything, and loves you no matter how much trouble you are be master over your life this week?  I pray for His peace in your storm to be evident and amazing as you open your eyes to all He has for you in the days ahead.  Thank you Lord for showing us through simple life instances of your goodness and your power in our lives.  Are you grounded in Him?  Are you willing to open your eyes to what He has to show you?  My prayer is that we will all begin this week seeing life more clearly and be blessed with the 20/20 vision that only God can give. Let me know how God is working in your life this week. And as always…Be blessed and don’t forget to go out there and be a blessing!

Psalm 119:37 (NKJV)  Turn away my eyes from looking at worthless things, and revive me in Your way.